I share the same exact experience as you, BeyondtheRainbow. Major periods of irritability (a light way to put it) during mixed states, but then with my current cocktail it seems to have mostly disappeared.

So many anger outbursts in the past! It's hard to choose between them, or even remember just a small percentage. Sometimes there was great agony mixed in. Perhaps the day my employer threatened to fire me was among the worst. That was about 17 years ago. I became so furious that I wrote a letter of resignation when I got back to my chair. Then I drove home super recklessly. Actually rapid violent thinking to drive into a tree, though luckily I didn't. I think what led to the threatened firing was when I basically roared at my work colleague who was hounding me "to talk". I had been yelling out a lot and slamming on my computer keyboard. Once I recall punching the wall. When I was called to HR, they said that six (yea, six) of my work colleagues issued complaints. I was very sick and had been for a long time. My mother had died about nine months earlier. I already had the bipolar disorder diagnosis, but refused treatment. I remember telling the HR Director "I have manic depression". In response, he told me that it didn't matter. That really pissed me off, but after years, I realized he was right. I was not to act like that. It was my responsibility to accept treatment.

What is your favorite autumn treat?