I have this sort of "schpiel" if you will, I'm a late Millennial-Early Gen Z cusper. I grew up during the internet age and the age of mistrust and distrust. I grew up not keeping friends very well because I was a socially awkward kid, and my parents constantly moved me to different schools and states a lot. I never got to make any good friends for very long, and I never really got to make any connections. Also, with my mother not allowing for me to hang out or play with other children and judging everyone, it was hard for me to ever hang out with anyone. I was constantly abused back at home, and life with chaotic and unstable in the household with my mother constantly divorcing and remarrying herself to new men. Even when I did have friends, I ended up sabotaging my friendships. I often feel like there's nothing there, no spark or connection to people. Like some barrier is dividing me from that person. Now that I'm older I find out I have BPD, Autism and ADHD and had CPTSD as a child. I had a sick and ****ed up childhood. As an adult, I do not have any friends. Everyone either has kids, wants to get high or do drugs, wants to get pregnant, etc. I've had people ghost and block me, and I've lost alot of people along the way. Even the current people I keep in touch with don't even consider me as their friends, these are women. Also, men that I'm friends with objectify me for my looks and for their sexual desires, and it irks and hurts me. It's hard to want to make friends when neurotypicals are constantly willing to hurt you, manipulate you, take advantage of your disabilities, bully you. What kind of **** world are we living in right now, and what the hell is wrong with my country and generation?