I had a panic attack on my way to work last night. Have to head out again in an hour for my 9 hour shift. This job is overwhelming. I'm almost tempted to quit the only reason I'm still trying to make it there each day is because I want some work history and it's nice having more money so I'm not broke all the time. I hate it though. It sucks. It's hard physically, I come home so ****ing sore it takes me over a day to recover from each shift and I'm tired and I'm skipping meds in order to make it there and not sleeping and my anxiety is at an all time high especially when dealing with customers, and they're always calling me to come in when I'm not scheduled. I'm constantly paranoid that the managers are talking about me and thinking of firing me for not doing good enough. I'm not eating properly or making meals because I don't have time and when I do I don't have the energy to actually make anything because I'm still physically and mentally recovering from the previous shift. Maybe I'm weak or something. Idk. I didn't expect it to be easy but this is a nightmare especially since it's only a part time job. And the holidays are coming which is gonna be even worse because all the holiday shoppers and dealing with lines and layways and returns etc