I know how you feel about the weight thing.. i too have been big since i was little. I was constantly teased and developed a really low self esteem....i would say ditto to delicious...do want you want to do and forget about everyone else..i have missed out in alot, because i have always been afraid of how people will judge me...you shouldnt have to go thru the same...you have the rest of your life ahead of you make the most of it....if someone really loves you they wont see any thing but your personality and charm...do not give up..thats the main thing..