Hey L. So likely there wasn't any there for you, like you said, and that's fine - but there sure was for me! I was thinking about it this morning in the shower for some reason. And it came to me - that perhaps this is because it was inside me all along, and I brought it there; I just didn't know it... it wasn't in the "relationship" itself, but the "relationship" gave me the space, even the permission, to find it. So thank you for that. Maybe now I can for real move forward knowing it's still inside me. I'm so grateful.

eta: don't you just love how **** like this randomly pops into my brain like months after you have said something?!