I really wanted to talk to someone. I just had a panic attack (I have been panic free for quite awhile (5 years). The past few months I felt some sneaking on. I usually try to talk myself out of them. If I am in the car, driving home from the hospital, I will just scream out loud. I am alone in the car! But just tonight, I had the sick stomach. I ran to the store to get a few things. Started walking through the store and felt like I was in a dream. Hate that feeling! Then when I got in the car it started. I tried the screaming thing and it did not word this time. It hit me hard. I felt like I could not see anything and I was driving blind. My head felt so strange. My stomach ached. My legs were numb and I just pulled into a stranger's driveway. I got out of the car and ran to the door. Now this is at 10:15 and night. No one answered and that was okay for me. Sometimes just doing something completely crazy makes it feel better. Does that make any sense? For example, if I feel like one is coming on now - I would feel better if I ran to one of my neighbors houses and talked to them (even though I hardly know them). Then, of course, tomorrow, I would be extremely embarrassed. I really think I am going crazy. I am a teacher in this area and if this got out I am not sure what would happen!

Thanks for listening.