I almost just got the cops called on me. I sent a message asking my pdoc if one of my GI meds is messing with my mental health. Increased depression. Slight paranoia. I said I wasn't S and asked if the med was the problem since this stuff started around that same time I began the med. But the first part of the message got cut off and the first word was S.

So my nurses pdoc called my mom and was like "Mountaindewed is S?" My mom had to explain the situation and the nurse calmed down and I resent the letter correctly.

Now I'm coughing real bad and just feeling blah physically. I know I didn't get out of bed all weekend or today except to go to the doctors. Honestly getting covid makes a lot more sense then my mental health getting wacky out of the blue.

I saw my primary doc today for my ER follow up. She put me on legit prescprition constipation meds. Said the other stuff is muscular. Same thing my PT was saying. I'm too tense in my stomach. Which doesn't help my constipation.

My pdoc got back to me. He pretty much just blew me off with a one sentence response of "its unlikely." I have not been feeling very supported lately by people besides my therapist and my mom. Idk if its me or them or what.

I just took a draminine because I want to stop the med I know is causing issues. I don't know if it was smart to take it with my valiums. But everyone seems to be blowing me off and I've done worse before anyways.