BubonicPlague’s quote:

“Also, with my mother not allowing for me to hang out or play with other children and judging everyone, it was hard for me to ever hang out with anyone.”

I think this is the key. Once your mother controlled you in such a way, it’s tons of hard to break the walls around you.

Hello, I didn’t greet you first. I wanted to point out the above.
I’m sorry you had such an undeserved childhood and I also wanted to tell you that I understand why you struggle to establish connections with the world outside. I sometimes can’t understand what happen to some mums and dads. They don’t know how much damage can cause on their kids.

How are the things going in therapy? If you don’t mind tell a little bit about it.
I hope you can elaborate your relation with your mother with your therapist.