Dr. S. Thank you for the reply yesterday. I think it will be helpful for a long time. It may even be what allows me to move on, in combination with the reality of what you are dealing with in your personal life. I'm going to really try to not email you except for periodic updates. And I'll talk to Dr. D about that before I do. It maybe that I don't need to send you those updates. Try to be a friend, that way, and not an attached and messed up patient.

I also wonder what would happen if things shifted in your personal life say in the next weeks (like <90 days). It seems like things could shift for you fairly unexpectedly and quickly. I'm not sure if you would really want me back. Sometimes I feel like that kid in the classroom that you like well enough because they are not a bad kid; however, once the kid is gone, you realize how much energy they sucked out of you.

I guess I can fantasize for a while that you might open up your practice again or not really get it completely closed before things shift. It's only human to wish for something it is losing - something it doesn't want to lose. Bargaining/denial... who knows which it is.

Be safe.

PS. I wonder if you will really not respond to my last email. I said no reply needed. Will you respect that or will you respond as always? It will be interesting to see how you handle it.