Like you said "Of course, I'm your therapist" yes, you are, even when I'm not seeing you regularly. And I want to talk to you now. I had such a wonderful time with my son the last few days but despite that, I'm struggling with something; it's just, well, I saw first-hand a healthy relationship between my son and his gf - the respect and consideration they have for each other, etc. It's been so long since h really showed me either that I have lost both for him as well and it's just, in my mind i feel like we're together only for the convenience of having a 2-income household now. When my sister was here visiting while I was in the hospital in June he apparently gave her the impression that he loves and cares about me. Well if that's true then I wonder why I don't feel that? I feel like I'm just an annoyance to him (well except for when I'm waiting on him hand and foot as he expects me to do, of course). Several times on our trip when I'd say something he'd just totally ignore me and launch into some semi-related-to-what-I'd-said (so I know for a fact he heard me) story that made him look like mr big man. My son could tell i was getting frustrated and would just give me a look that said "just ignore him, mom". I'm tired of being treated like a servant. That's not what marriage is supposed to be about. And I don't even know how to begin trying to talk with him about how I feel.