@ArmorPlate108 "One thing that might be of some use to you is to learn more about boundaries."

Thanks for your reply. This is a good reminder because I had done a lot of work on boundaries in the last year or so but let it slide recently. I definitely need to make my boundaries clear again because recently I hit a place where I decided to just surrender & accept everything. It was supposed to be something of a holy endeavour to let go and let God but it hasn't worked out too well for my mental health.

My plan now then is to:

Re-establish boundaries

Be assertive (even if my voice is shaking)

Start my exercises again because that makes me feel stronger

Reignite my self-esteem with mindfulness and positive self-feedback