I'm very sorry for what you have been through. Miscarriage is a very real loss, but often one that's overlooked. To other people around you, the loss isn't so concrete and the support surrounding miscarriage can be lacking.

Have you looked for, or found, any miscarriage support groups online? Maybe a loss group like that could offer you comfort from the same place?

It's a grief process no different than any other, and I'm sorry that you had to deal with that loss, and then some of the other problems that seemed to follow it.

I had a miscarriage 16 years ago, and it took a long time to not feel deep sorrow about it. To the few family members who knew, or even H, I think it was conceptualized as not much more than a very, very late period, but for me it was the loss of a real child and all the hopes and dreams that go with it.

You aren't alone