i spent the day before yesterday in my closet. i really scared my hubby i think. he convinced me to come out to go to bed, but i have been really fighting the urge to go sit back in there since then. the good news is i finally have a pdoc appointment early in july. they are going to do a med evaluation. i hate meds, take xanax just enough to cope, but it is taking more lately to work. i don't want to take something that makes me numb. was on lexapro for a while and the ONLY thing i felt then was the anxiety. it did slow down the actual panic attacks, but i was more anxious the rest ofthe time. hopefully i will be able to get a T without having to sit in the waitng room for hours after i see their pdoc. they don't normally make appointments apparently. does anybody else ever sit in a closet? is that really wierd? the worst of it is i don't even know why i want to sit in there.

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