I am suicidal. My thirst for knowledge and learning has increased greatly. As we are out of time.. I have to know everything that is in reality and outside of it.

Very deep, so that I can never come back here.. And reincarnate another hell.

I have hope too - And all positive things. It will get better if I keep trying, no matter how hard people make it worse for me.

I will escape. As I am a pure soul. If I don't, at least I tried.

I will bring everything that is close to me - But I think I'll be forever missing, my family and such.. To the certain % that it gets sucked into a black hole. And things will be found again, when they cross my timeline - When destiny allows for it.