He came to visit me this wkend. We had fun. We went to a club in the city to see a favorite band. The only thing was that I ran into my ex’s best friend when we first arrived. He wished me well. It kind of was a buzz kill, as were other people inside complaining about us dancing in their space when we weren’t. They kept nagging my guy about it. Buzz kill!

And we had sex twice. It was just ok. There’s lots of room for improvements. I thought of guy #1 and wondered whether sex would have been better with him. Sigh. I’ve been sexually deprived for many years and am ready for amazing sex, but that’s not what this was. Ugh. I was disappointed.

Then he arrived home and tells me it’s the best night he’s had in years. I can’t say the same but I did enjoy myself overall. We get along. He says we think alike and have a lot in common. I have to process things longer. We do get along well and seem to be on the same page a lot. We shall see how this unfolds next… I’m going to visit him next wkend for another show.

And I don’t want to settle.. the sex needs to be better. I know it can take time to know what each other likes and wants. I think I need to express these things to him. Tell him what I like.

He also talks a lot about his ex’s. That’s kind of a turn off to me. I don’t talk a ton about my ex husband. He brings up an ex every other sentence.. I need to ask him to curb that.