@AzulOscuro I needed a GP to write me a paper which would allow me to go to specialist. I am at private clinic, but they told me that the specialist would be free in three months. So I needed to look somewhere else. I got there several week later and she can't do the tests so I need to go to another doctor. I have an appointment there in two weeks. So I expect my treatment to start in one month, if not later

Well, yeah, I should keep faith, but this week, I start getting assignments and I must work on them on my own. Also, there is one project where I'm responsible for three other people I never met...

With the courses, it isn't paid to retake the courses. The problem is that if I don't submit assignments or don't take tests, I fail them, I won't be allowed to take final exams. Of course, I can sign up next year, but I will have one less attempt at final exams and if I fail then, they will kick me out. Also, during the fifth semester, I am obliged to find a job as it is a mandatory part of my study plan.

You're right, I do have very low mood. But that is caused also by other things. To help you imagine, yesterday, I bought a ticket to see one of my favorite bands in two months and I don't feel like I'm looking forward to it. It is in a town I don't like much and also, now I'm definitely not in the mood of going alone, but there is no one who would go with me. I'm so depressed (not only because of my hand) that even this can't change my mood