Clever way to express it ... "an unwilling recipient of ptsd"

For years I didn't even know ptsd was behind many of my actions and reactions. Who could guess that the past could affect the present in such a way?

Sorry that you've had to experience all of it and here's hope that that one incident can be overcome as you have the others. There are some that just seem impossible, I know.

Your use of words and the survey show that you're clever and intelligent, and you are making a difference in this world.