I still don't know if I'm doing the right thing. He says I'm selfish, childish, ignorant and that I don't care. But I do care so much!

I see him doing mistakes after mistakes. He is going to have a hard time when I will be gone and get himself in trouble. I know I am far from perfect but I do help him with his mistakes. He will have to control his anger so to deal with people. He is going to be lost. I really wish deep down inside me that he will be ok. I don't want nothing bad to happen to him. It is so sad.

I know he is really abusive towards me but I really hope I did my best. I feel so much like a failure and guiltiness is killing me but if I stay I will die too. I know you people here don't know me but would you please tell me I did my best even if you don't really know If I did or not.

The count down has begun. 30 days left. I so hope he will be ok.

Thank you!
nightdream