Yesterday my "newish" therapist rather triggered me. I started the session expressing my concern and sadness about extra cognitive dulling over the last year, and how it's affecting my ability to do/learn more. Rather than discuss that in any meaningful way, by the end of the session I found him encouraging me to consider getting a job. I immediately felt some panic and the need for fight or flight. I almost wondered if he has some political leanings that made him push that in a way. I don't think he understood my issue. I wonder how much he understands the issues some with bipolar disorder face. I'm unsure what to do, frankly. I'm reluctant to simply quit him at this point. Perhaps I misread his reaction? Plus, I'm not up to starting all over again, but know I should if my hunch is accurate.
Out of the blue, my husband had the idea to travel to Florence, Italy. Unlike him, I have never been to that city, but it was also not number 1 on my bucket list. We planned to go to Norway as a belated 25th anniversary gift to one another. He said the spring might be best for that. My number 2 was actually Greece, a country I've never visited, unlike Italy. Nevertheless, we have flights booked to Florence for November. I'm not disappointed. Just a little shocked. We don't really have the money to spare for that trip, but I guess...who cares!
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Dx: Bipolar type 1
Psych Medications:
* Tegretol XR (carbamazepine ER) 800 mg
* Lamictal (lamotrigine) 150 mg
* Seroquel XR (quetiapine ER) 500 mg
I also take meds for blood pressure, cholesterol, and tachycardia.
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