Dr. S, I started wondering if I choose to see Dr. P over Dr. G as a form of punishment. Yes, it has a logical base. I can pretty much come up with logical bases for many of my decisions. Emotionally, Dr. G would have given me so much more that I crave and got/get from you. So am I denying myself pleasures/enjoyment/joy/good feelings because I want to make myself suffer? If I'm suppose to go with my intuition on this; I would say I am.

I wish you would stop telling me how much you think I will enjoy working with Dr. P and how glad you are that I am seeing him. It feels like you are trying to ease your own guilt than support me. And maybe that is accurate. It also feels right.