Oh @Gasplessy, I hope one day soon your heart will heal.Awakening to ourselves, our past actions, can be very painful seeing how we did hurt others...I understand. I think alot of people on this site empathise with you and feel for what you're going through Gasplessy. I just want you to know you're not alone the world over, in that respect. We live and we learn. Let the pain burn itself out.😔🙏