My dad called me early this morning saying stuff like he's a psychopath and the only reason he hasn't murdered anyone is because of all the weed he smokes and he can tell I'm just like him and the only reason he hasn't killed himself is also because of drugs and then he went on a rant about the whole family is bipolar and how his sister/my aunt has tried all the meds and nothing worked so that's why she's an alcoholic too. That's real helpful...

Second time I heard from him since last Christmas, and he's saying the same type of stuff as the other time.

I got more than 4 hours of sleep for the third time since I got out of residential on the 11th (all broken and filled with night terrors of course, but still at least I feel more rested/calm/resilient than I normally do).

My pdoc appointment yesterday went well. She's great. The appointment lasted like an hour and it went past the CMHC's closing time. She wants me to think about why I don't like getting close to people. I was 100% honest with her and even though I told her about the things I did and how I went against my CD by stopping meds and doing drugs, she didn't lock me up or anything, just kinda counseled me.