I spoke to my nursing practitioner on Friday in the morning. She wants to see me next Friday. I have to get the bloodwork repeated sometime towards the end of October, because there were several anomalous readings. I know why this is the case;' it's because I've been drinking again for 7 months after more than 8 years of sobriety. My liver functions are degraded, very bad. Other than that, I've had a good week. I had no meetings with the HR representative from hell, in my capacity as shop steward for my union. I'm thankful for that, as meeting with him provokes extreme anxiety in me. I was able to stay sober for the whole work week, until Friday evening when I began to drink again. I drink because it makes me feel good when I do it, even if the withdrawal symptoms on Monday are absolute hell. I'm concerned for my health moving forward, but not too concerned. I only have to stay alive until my mother dies, after that I'm free to die by whatever means happens. Of course, my mother likely has another 20-30 years until her death, so I have to make it through that length of time. It's going to be an arduous task, but after she dies I'm free to die myself. I don't want to hurt her which is why I can't die until after she dies by natural causes.