@@ does like her a calypgian characteristic.

Im sorry i havent answered the work question. Leaving work (20 years ago) was traumatic for me. I was traumatized before i left and started having nightmares which continued for ten years, waking up confused. For years i was sure i was still working but eventually came to realize i wasnt leaving the house, so how? When? Where? In sum, i think i am finally starting to integrate. Starting to accept how hard and weird it was.