So, yesterday I thought life was bad. Everytime things look like a better horizon I get pooped on. As if life was already going bad, I found out today that the company I have worked for the past 3 years is closing it's doors at the end of April.
I try to see the light, but I realize when I see it that it is just another train coming head on.
Been up and down most of my adult life. Been hospitalized over a dozen times but always find the strength to hang in there a little longer. I have been doing really well for the past 4 years. Now it seems like I am starting all over again with anxiety, depression. They said I am BPD. I take Celexa but after April I will not have insurance to be on the meds.
I used to cut but haven't. Now the urge has been hinting to me again.
I am starting to have doubts all over again.
I just sit down and lose myself and realize 30 minutes have gone by and I have no idea what I have been doing for those 30 minutes.
I don't know if I am even making sense now....does anyone understand me?