Well, even if correct about the immortality thing, wouldn't it be better to utilise the life you have now to seek for happiness in this and/or the subsequent lives? From what I'm reading in your posts MuddyBoots, you do really need help and support to really overcome the problems you have leading to being constantly suicidal. Going IP is help. I wish you well and support and I do think you can find a better way to live. I do. All the best with the laundry too. 🙏