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Old Oct 03, 2023, 03:05 PM
jaklevco jaklevco is offline
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Member Since: May 2023
Location: Slovakia + Czech Republic
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All of my friends have been hostile, manipulative or left me recently. My family (which lives 170km away) doesn't really listen when it comes to my sufferings and seems to don't want to understand.
I have my dominant hand seriously injured so I cannot spend time with activities I enjoy and don't know if I will ever be able to. Also, the healthcare system is very poor.

Every day, when I come home, I just feel like I can do nothing. I can't really meet new people because of the injury (I cannot take part in any activity). Making firneds at school seems impossible. I try to reach out to people, but I'm in my second year of university studies and all socialization took part in the first year via a messenger group I didn't know about at all. I like attending ice hockey matches (but contrary to other people my age, I don't go there to shout with ultra fans, but to see the game). Also, I go to concerts, but only to those I know I will enjoy because of the music, otherwise, it is wasted time (so it's nothing regular). Concerts of my favorite bands are big (up to 100 000 people), so anonymous, and require travelling so I have no chance of seeing the people ever again.

The situation with my hand also doesn't allow me to do basically any free time activities I would be interested in to fill my time. I love music, but I can't play (that is what I enjoy about music). I started running every morning. I don't enjoy running at all, but it is probably the only physical activity I can do. Before, I enjoyed floorball and swimming, but I have no idea if I will ever be able to do any of the mentioned activities again because of the injury.
I used to write rhymes sometimes, but my hand is so injured that I cannot write and even before, I had started to repeat myself in my writing.

I've never had a significant other, not a single relationship of this kind, (when it comes to this, the only feeling I know is a broken heart and I feel that the more experience I have, the worse it ends) so there is no one with whom I can share my positive traits and care for them.

There really is nothing I can do and boredom combined with loneliness start to eat me up.
If any advice comes to your mind, I'll be grateful to read it.
Hugs from:
Discombobulated, mote.of.soul, MrAbbott
Thanks for this!
AzulOscuro