Hi @MrAbbott, yeah, it was pleasant in the chat. I don't actually feel defeated. In last couple of months, everything I cared about broke down and there seems to be no change in near future. I found out that no matter if and how I try, my efforts don't lead to success. I know not having a positive mindset can lead to failure, but that's why I do have positive mindset when I try. I don't give up and present myself positively.

1. I don't really beat myself, I rather reflect of what is happening. My self-esteem is very good, I'm brave, strong, I know my positive traits. I found out that apparently, these are not the things needed to achieve my goals although it should be more than enough. I know I'm worthy of the things I want or need in my life.

2. About my economic resources, they went down because me and my parents spent lot of money for my housing (I study kind of abroad) and I don't have a job myself yet. Besides, the healthcare system in Slovakia doesn't work this way. I am at a private clinic, but I still had to find a doctor elsewhere to get an appointment because the private one couldn't give me one. And I can get only very basic/emergency treatment (so nothing concerning my hand) in Czechia because I only study and don't work here.
My folks... The two people I'm contact with... One of them doesn't communicate regularly so she feels sorry and whenever she responds, she asks what's new about it. It's hard to keep in touch with her. And the other one has been my classmate since high school, but I don't consider him a friend because he doesn't want to socialize with anyone and is hostile to me regularly (but he finds me in school anyway). About my hand, he told me he feels sorry, but just makes fun of it...
Reeducating to my other hand, is not a good choice, my father has experience with this and sometimes, he can't read what he wrote himself. I try to woork on computer with other hand, but it is a pain. I was used to write useing two hands and using mouse in non-dominant is really bad.

3. No, there isn't. Music was there with me since I was 7. I changed the instrument during high school and later on, found myself in playing. I don't take it as a hobby, but rather a part of my personality (although I never wanted to make a living out of it). Well, I used to spend time with scale modelling, but I have no space, hand and time (it requires several hours per session) for that. I hated athletics before, I don't like running now, I do it because there is no other physical activity I can do (including taichi or yoga - although my wrist is injured, my whole forearm is in pain). I feel disconnected because I cannot do anything and also because of that, I don't have many opportunities to meet new people.

4. You know, I can and do get over feeling heartbroken and I don't give up trying again. I will repeat myself, but really, the more experience I have, the more hurtful they are (based on objective reasoning). As I have mentioned, I feel that I deserve finding someone who I would share myself with for who I am, for how I present myself and for what I bring into a relationship.
I tried finding some university activities (there are not many), but because I stopped using social media (and don't regret that decision), because the offer of activities is very small and because of my hand, I can't find anything I could enjoy at least to some extend.

5. I tried looking for professional help, but it doesn't work. I had experience in the past. Few years ago, I needed an advice with something so I found a professional with just the best recommendations. And he didn't heklp me. Concerning this, I was recommended a specialist not far from my hometown. When I was there, the specialist said, "I don't know what to tell you." I missed my next session because I needed to trave back to my home town and the train was 90 minutes late.

To be honest, I don't feel like the content of the post cheered me up, I don't feel really well. But I definitely appreciate that you replied. Not many people do...