Thank you all for your understanding. I am just so scared right now. I HATE what I have become. You have no idea. And I am scared of what the rest of my life will be like now that so many people know the truth about me. I mean seriously, try to place yourselves in my shoes. I know full well that I brought this on myself. I was only trying to escape. Doesn't make it right. Some people use drugs or alchol. But, the end result is the same. Total isolation, shame & humiliation. I have mustered so much strength to get through each day for the past two years. I think I am bout tapped out.