I know no therapist is perfect. I’m pretty sure most therapists I’ve had, I’ve liked at times and hated at other times.

Backstory: I’ve been seeing my current therapist for a little over two months. The very first time I saw her, I didn’t like her (as a therapist) but I kept going because I was honestly too lazy to find anyone else. My judgement of her was that she was a little too peppy and I’m someone more serious, who doesn’t really like to laugh or joke around in sessions. As time went on, I started to really like seeing her because she was there for me through my ongoing crisis. For example, after one of my sessions, she texted me asking if she could give me a mid-week call, and then planned my next couple days out with me so I would have a schedule and less time to feel suicidal. I literally hung up the phone and sobbed for like 10 minutes because I felt so cared for for the first time in forever. Then I had a hospital stay and began an outpatient program at the hospital. While I waited to begin the OP program, we saw each other twice a week until I began, and we went back to once.

Ok now to today-

Currently: I’ve had a couple sessions with her that just felt off and I felt not heard at all. This past week I had a mental breakdown and I texted her during it to ask if she had time for a phone call before our next session. She said no and to utilize the hospital programming I’m a part of. Which is totally fine. A little embarrassing and disappointing to hear but I get that it’s her job and she gets to set the parameters. I’m a little hurt that she didn’t ask me what I felt about that interaction. Then when I told her why I was upset over the weekend, I feel like she wasn’t understanding me. It’s hard to describe but I felt like she talked a lot about what she thought of my situation and how she felt about the things I’m doing instead of asking me what I thought. And her thoughts and opinions on it were far, far off from how I felt. She’s also a pre-licensed therapist and as far as I can tell, I think we’re around the same age. So that feels awkward to me as well because I’ve never seen a therapist who wasn’t 10+ years older than me.

I would be sad to leave and have to start again with a new therapist, especially because I don’t think this therapeutic relationship is all bad. It just leaves a lot to be desired at times and is starting to feel more like a chore than a stress reliever. I don’t know if this is something I can bring up with her because we’ve never had any kind of conflict in the past, so I wouldn’t know how to go about it. My question is- is it just time to find someone else?