Hi TheGal, thank you for your reply, and i'm sorry that you have also been struggling.
I'm currently on a waiting list for some medication which has been ongoing for a couple months now, also
I feel like a breakdown for me is when i start to experience uncontrollable strong anxiety, feelings of insecurity/uncomfortableness, and non-stopping crying i'd say would be the most main things included. Some of these things do happen outside of my worst moments, but it's just when i do experience them.
Thanks again for your message