Hi AzulOscuro, thanks for your reply.
I'm sorry to hear about your experiences with mental health also, I hope everything's going well for you.
It's nice and of course not nice to hear that i'm not the only one who has/is going through similar struggles, it becomes hard to remember that from time to time.
I'm sure there's a lot of other forms of therapy which does make me hopeful, it's just knowing where to look and criteria's i guess. Plus having tried multiple things in the past and nothing ever seeming to work does start to make me feel unmotivated about trying new things, but i do still want to try beyond that.
Soon i should be given some medication hopefully, and i'm currently sort of in my resting phase, so i'll try your advice when i'm able too and maybe i'll make some progress in the future.
Thank you again for your message and the welcome, it means a lot