I didn't say this to you today, but I really do wonder how you have managed to put up with me for so long. Although you did mention today that it's almost been 12 years since we started doing this and that we've been talking about my marriage off and on for most of that time. I know, I know, believe me, I know. But I still don't know how to just make that decision and not look back. My problem with decision-making is, I ALWAYS look back. I've never known how to just make a decision and run with it. I second, third, quadruple, quintuple, etc guess myself to death over every.single.decision. regardless of the size of it and this particular one would be enormous.