So finally told my crush that I care for him and feel emotionally bonded with him. He responded positively- said our close friendship is a good thing!

Tomorrow is the combined birthday party for my 3 kids. We’re having it at my mom’s. The kids requested a chai cake with cream cheese frosting. Hopefully it turns out ok! We’re also having pizza. My mom was going to make her famous taco salad but decided she’d just order out.

Oh and my Starbucks friend- the one who never answered my texts about six weeks ago- showed up at Starbucks. He was just about to leave and he caught a glimpse of me sitting at a table and said hi. I said I was glad to see him and that I’d tried texting him but he never responded. He said the number I had is his land line which of course doesn’t accept texts. He gave me his cell number and I said I’d contact him so that we could plan to get together some time. I thought he was a lost friend!

Speaking of Starbucks friends, the guy that keeps professing his love for me- I called him today. He got mad at me and said I’d deceived him! You see, the other night I told him about my Fwb. He says I did that out of spite. What really happened was that we were on FaceTime and my phone notification sounded and he asked why my phone went off. I said, “it’s my friend with benefits…”. He wanted to know how often we’d been getting together and for how long. He disconnected out chat when I told him we’d known each other for 18 years. This sounds terrible except that he told ME many times including fairly recently that he’d fallen in love with me years ago but I always made it perfectly clear to him that all I wanted was friendship! And today he conveniently forgets this. Of course! So at the end of today’s call he told me he never wants to talk with me again. Prior to this he had alternately been professing his undying love for me and saying he’s moved on. Sheesh.