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Old Oct 07, 2023, 03:49 AM
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Member Since: Jun 2013
Location: Middle Earth
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Hello friends, I’ve been around. Just been distracted. Work is going well. I worked last night from 7:30pm to 11:30pm. They asked if I could come in today and pick up a shift from 8:45am to 12:45pm. So I’m heading out to that in a couple hours. Running on no sleep because I didn’t get home till around midnight after last nights shift and I have a hard time winding down after work. I hate back to back shifts. They’re hard. But I figured I’d take this because I called in on Sunday since I wasn’t feeling well. I’m hoping they don’t ask me in again for Sunday or Monday. I’m not technically scheduled for those days but sometimes they ask and I usually say yes because I want the experience even if it does suck and is difficult. I’m officially the talent captain now. So I’m addition to cashiering,
12 hours a week will be spent doing my talent captain job there, interviewing potential employees choosing which ones to pass on to the hiring manager to be hired and doing orientation for new employees and helping them fill out their paperwork , i9 s and help them with the training videos and and giving them their work IDs etc.

I’m tired. I want to sleep. I was looking forward to a three day weekend but I agreed to pick up the shift today so I’m gonna just get it over with and then come home and relax.

My apartment is kinda messy. I’m having a hard time learning to balance work and my household chores. Like the time I’m not working (on my days off) I don’t feel like doing anything or I feel like just relaxing. So I don’t get anything done. And on the days I’m working I’m too exhausted physically and mentally to do anything. So I’m still trying to find balance with that. Same thing for practicing violin. I’m hoping to get some cleaning done today when I get home. And throughout the rest of the weekend. I work again the upcoming Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday and sunday. I have an hour long violin lesson tomorrow. I need to start practicing more , it’s just hard to motivate myself. I really need to declutter and clean and make my living area nice then I can probably focus better.

Anyway, I’m just drinking a pumpkin spice coffee and trying to decide what to eat for breakfast later.

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