Hey,
Thank you both. Alaizabel, nice to meet you, I'm Ashley. Those sound like they are great ideas. It must be an oral fixation because I find sometimes I eat even when I'm full and don't really want more. It's just because its there that I eat it. Also, I always have tried the gum so maybe this next time i'll buy some mints.

Hi Christina,
In a sense, yes, if I was thinner I would feel better about myself and my appearance. I would'nt skip college classes or even a chance to go to the bank, like I do now. I've just started up with a therapist, a few sessions ago, and it makes sense to me now why I throw up, but I havent figured out completely why I want to be skinnier. I started this about a year ago when I kept getting used by several guys...they'd pretend I was in relationships with them for about 3 months each and then at the end they said they were just using me for sex. Thats what triggered it, and then I ate so much over the summer to make myself feel better. But when I came back home my family kept telling me that I gained weight and I felt horrible about it, and from then on I have been trying to lose it, and so far have lost 20lbs as mentioned. Fortunatly I know have a very loving boyfriend of 6 months, but he is 2 years younger then me, and him and his friends hang out with girls even younger then that (17 or 18yr olds), they are all so super skinny and pretty, I feel like I can't compete.

Anyhoo, Thank you for your post. Have a wonderful day.