I'm sorry to hear that... How long did you cut/burn, and do you know about when it started? If you don't derive any satisfaction from the pain, it does sound like you're reenacting old relationship patterns by letting others hurt you. Do you have a therapist? Talking it over with a professional might be the most direct way of finding a solution.
You don't have any good friends who you can rely on and turn to for supoport and comfort? I kind of understand your predicament... Back here at home, I'm surrounded by drug-using/dealing, heavy-drinking, violent 'friends' and don't really have anyone to turn to for emotional support. But you need to try to be your own friend first.
Take care, and keep posting; we'll try our best to help you through this.
(((((((((damajdancer))))))))))
 
J
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"One by one, as they march, our comrades vanish from our sight, seized by the silent orders of omnipotent death. Very brief is the time in which we can help them, in which their happiness or misery is decided. Be it ours to shed sunshine on their path, to lighten their sorrows by the balm of sympathy, to give them the pure joy of a never-tiring affection, to stregthen failing courage, to instill faith in hours of despair."
-Bertrand Russell
With love and hope,
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