I ended up taking RS to the ER last night to get rehydrated. He’d been having severe diarrhea multiple times for hours and had severe stomach cramps and occasional vomiting. He’d only been able to drink have a liter of water and an electrolyte drink all day so I figured it was best to get checked out and get some fluids. He feels better today. He vomited yesterday at 7am and felt great afterward so against my advice he ate two greasy breakfast sandwiches and later ate a small sub sandwich. I told him it was a bad idea but he thought he’d be fine. Not so. So I told him today he is limited to crackers, soup, and applesauce as per the ER dr’s recommendation no matter how good he thinks he feels. If he makes it all day with no vomiting he can consider eating normal tomorrow but I still advised him to eat bland tomorrow too. Hopefully he’ll listen to his intelligent wife this time

My son went to my mom’s last night bc I didn’t know how long we’d be (it was already 8pm). Her house looks way better. The couch is clear so he could sleep, and there are way less bags in the living room as well. She assured me the kitchen had been cleaned and sanitized as well. I’m glad she’s making progress and proud of her for doing it herself without my help. That is progress in and of itself.

I was flipping out inside at the hospital last night. I HATE hospitals, too many bad experiences. I get paranoid that they’re going to see through me and keep me against my will even though this hospital had no psych ER. Plus I’m stable. I had to repeat to myself that I’m fine, there’s no reason to keep me, I’m fine, everything’s fine, RS is not on death’s door, etc etc. I ended up with a massive anxiety headache but I distracted myself by watching Casper on my phone. That was one of my favorite movies as a kid. I’m glad everything is ok and I made it through without a full panic attack. I was afraid the stress would send me into a tailspin but I feel good today so I’m proud of myself for keeping calm using coping skills.

Today is a relaxing day, I’ll be doing chores off and on all day as the house has fallen into disarray what with RS being sick and CR having a broken finger. The bathroom definitely needs to be cleaned and sanitized and I need to put away a lot of clutter that’s sitting around.

We do have our new couch and it’s so nice to be able to just get up without having to hoist myself out of the broken, sunken in cushions! Plus it reclines, it’s so nice. My cat has already claimed one of the seats.