I am close to panic attacks again... and it just.. sucks....

I feel.. like.. I am ok one day... I make all these arrangements.. like offering things on freecycle... then.. by the time the people come to pick up the item.. in a couple days.. I pace the floor.. and don't sleep... it causes me so so much anxiety.. I can't stand it...

so... I guess.. I need to live.. in a "tent".. inside my home to feel safe again.. never to go out..

gezzzzzzzzzzzz where does this "end of the world" feeling coming from..

Does anyone feel that too???