Well, tonight seems to be a night of no sleep. This actually doesn't happen to me very often. I'm behind on some things, so part of me is happy I can be productive (although, that might just be the symptoms speaking). Maybe, I'll crash and get at least a tiny bit of sleep. When this has happened, it typically lasts only a night or two. Fingers crossed that will be the case this time too.

Between the severe depression symptoms I've had recently, losing weight, the random bursts of hypomanic symptoms, things being off in general for about a month, and now a night of no sleep, I am very curious how my appointment with my pdoc is going to go on Tuesday. I am by no means a danger to myself or others but, because the depression symptoms have been so bad the last few days I've barely been able to function, and because now I'm not sleeping, I can't help but wonder/worry about just how bad things have to get before my pdoc recommends something like inpatient care. This could just be my habit of automatically going to the worst case situation, but I still can't help but wonder if I should get some things in order (especially at work) just in case.

I've never had an inpatient stay; maybe, I'll spend some of this time tonight looking at ways to prep and then can spend the daytime hours getting things in order at work. I already had a plan to spend the day off I have getting caught up on things I've fallen behind on at work anyway.