I didn't take my olanzapine last night because I'd been feeling mad hangry on it and I feel a little elevated this AM. Been dwelling on this one night stand that went sour before I got with my most recent ex. Maybe pdoc is right and I should take a break from sexual and romantic relationships. Seems everything I touch burns to ashes.
"I get this ache, and I thought it was for sex, but it's to tear everything to fcking pieces." (from Ginger Snaps)

I gotta pick up my meds today. Stupid that I have to do the weekly bubble pack thing. Then I gotta go home and take out all the olanzapine from each bubble and swap out all the 5mg diazepams for halves of 2mgs and reseal 'em.

I hope I get into the DBT group soon. I hope I jump in at the beginning of the emotion regulation module because that's the only one I haven't done!

I haven't gone hiking in forever. I haven't even gone for a walk outside my neighborhood in forever. I want to go to the park today.