Hi Azul, I have some news.
Still, I haven't got new appointment for my hand, but yesterday, I felt as if something cracked there and new pain was created, which is unbearable now.

I start to feel neglected by my last friend. She found a boyfriend during the summer so she spends time with him, that's fine. She also is a busy person, I acceot that. But she goes to cinema or hangs out with her friends regularly, but never finds time to eat out or go for coffee with me. She never replied fast to my messages, but now it's too slow.
Also, new people I meet just don't want to socialize (some of them told me directly)...

So again, things I care about just get f***ed up...