I manage to get through the days, but all are nearly worthless, save having my husband. There is no real end in sight. I suppose I'm lucky that my sister is handling all of the estate-related stress on the US end, but I do feel bad she is struggling with it. Of course there are major problems. It seems that in life nothing works out easily. There is a complexity abd required "fight" in it all because of our brothers' estate and my sister's buyout of property from me. I won't even mention what they are. I know that neither our father nor our brother would have thought there would be such a possibility.

A couple weeks ago, my therapist triggered me, royally. Since then I have not written to him or scheduled a next appointment since the day after. That day after, I wrote asking if he knew what triggered me. He didn't seem to know. I confess that I haven't got it in me to work through this given that it seems more a relationship issue, something trumped by all of the far far harder challenges. However, I'm paying for the online therapy, even if it doesn't happen. Cancel? Cool off a bit and try again with him? Or ask for someone else? Frankly, I don't have it in me to decide right now.

Sorry I've not been able to support others, lately. Just barely making it.