Heading to work in a couple hours. Work from 5pm to 9pm.

Been practicing ukulele a lot. Learning Oh come oh come Emmanuel on it. Also been practicing my violin. Working on sight reading and music theory too.

I was an anxious wreck earlier today. Idk why. I just started feeling dread about work tonight and it kept building up and I was starting to panic. I took my beta blocker (propranolol) and it helped calm me down a lot.

I’ve been meditating at least 20 minutes a day everyday.

SP if you read this idk if you listen to podcasts but Jay Shetty who wrote the book Think Like a Monk has a podcast and it’s really good and motivating and insightful. I subscribed and started listening to it

Also been reading a lot. I’m reading a book about making/breaking habits and how mindfulness helps. And also reading a horror novel and also the fantasy series Throne of Glass by Sarah J. Maas
Season 3 of Chucky has started releasing. An episode every Wednesday. So I started that last week. I’m a huge horror fan and love this show. Been watching it the past 3 years. I love that they always release the new season in October for Halloween time.

The weather is cooling off. It was 43 degrees yesterday. Feels a lot nicer out.

I feel good mostly. Just struggling with really severe work anxiety but that’s about it. My mood is good. I’m trying to cut back on coffee because I drink too much of it. I’ve cut myself down to 3 cups a day. And am gonna do that for a week. Then keep gradually cutting back, then going to decaf.

I slept good last night. Slept from 9:30pm to 8am.