I know I should be in the hospital or in rehab or somewhere, but my treatment team doesn't see it. I don't know if I'm underplaying it (I highly doubt this, yesterday I went from screaming on the phone with my case manager to crying when I called her back 20 min later when she didn't answer), or if due to certain dxs I now have they think I'm hopeless, IP would be a waste, I'm doing it for attention, whatever I don't even know.

I feel so out of control and I want to put the brakes on before I ffck things up even more. I talk to my pdoc today.