Yeah, it definitely is. Life is never fair, I know that, but seems to me that it has never given me anything pleasant.
Well, I have an appointment on Thursday, but that is a consultation after last results. It is appointment at neurologist, but since the only thing I know is that this is not a neurological problem, the appointment makes no snese. Now, I need to go to my GP again because he sends me to the specialist. That's the appointment I don't have. Well, I also don't know what other doctor should I see, but I expected the previous to like suggest something...

I'm curious about my studies with the hand because midterms are comming and I cannot write. I also don't want to interrupt my studies and I don't think I even can because I don't have a diagnosis. I handle the knowledge which is not tha teasy, but I cannot work on assignments and that's what counts (not what you know, but what you don't do). I may have serious problem at university because of this f***ing issue...

About me being into her, we talked it through several months ago (just to emphasize, she was single by then) and then, we continued communicating as friends pretty well. I got over it, it's in the past, and she knows that very well, so I suppose this is not the reason for not even texting me.
I haven't thought that I'm jealous. I don't know the people she meets, so I don't think I can be jealous of them. She has been behaving as a good friend although we haven't known each other for a very long time and she has always been busy. So I rather don't know what to think.
But it really hurts. I experienced such situations in the past and it was horrible. Well, now it includes a person who has been a better friend than the people who did this to me in the past, so I really don't want to know how it could hurt.

I don't think I know where I should actually meet new people since any activity is unavailable because of the hand and people I meet at places I visit regularly don't want to dedicate their time for meeting again.

Well, I suggest you not to put yourself in my shoes. Although last week was fine and I am mentally set up for positive changes, not even a chance for those occurs...