<font color="purple">It's really sad, I know there isn't anything I can do to change it.

No matter how many times I say I love him, and think he's the best dad ever he just thinks I'm joking aroung, that he's a horrible parent. Dosn't take care of himself like he should, and that he'll just "die in a few years anyways so what's the point?" this isn't anything new, he has had depression his whole life and he's just getting better at mixing it with other things, I remember walking into his room many times as a kid after he and mom were divorce and he'd be crying- but he'd always deny it.

Being a strongly empathetic person, it just really breaks my heart. Nothing I can do, I just don't want him to die all sad and lonely- I want him to know that he's not a failure...that he is loved so very much.

It's hard to see the keyboard when you're crying </font>