I let the recruiter know just this morning to withdraw me from the temp job since I already applied through Indeed as a full-time job applicant. I am sure she's mad but I don't care. There's a million temp agencies I can sign up with to to continue to temp.
Or, I can rideshare drive 6-8 hours a day and try to make ends meet that way while I still apply on Indeed for full-time jobs.

I'm in a pickle. Oh well. I'll find my way out. Lots of people are in my situation. So, I won't berate myself. I'm not a loser.