I am so bummed out and sad that once again, my weirdness has caused issues.

As you've all read, I've been griping about working with a manager that (what I felt) was forcing me to be super social with coworkers from responding to after hours messages about someone's vacation (a chat that I muted), to wearing a birthday had and changing my background for a birthday on the extended team (which I didn't have time to do because I had muted the chat on my phone). I did put a happy birthday GIF in the Zoom Meeting.

I got in trouble today (again) because I didn't come to "game day".

After reading responses provided here (THANK YOU), I realized that I could try harder, so I made sure to write down what I was going to say when they asked for updates and to make a list of everyone in the group and check off who had already spoken so I would know who to "pass it to".

The comment was made today (by the same warm and fuzzy leader) that I was exaggerating, and that my comment that I don't really eat Tacos to the "What's your favorite taco place" question was rude.

She went further to state that my answers to the "engagement topic" questions are too short. (??????????????) What's your favorite vacation spot?
"I like the beach...." and I make it a point to smile and look directly into the camera....

I don't purposely go out of my way to not be liked, but I rarely am (which is why I just spend time with my dog). I don't know why it's bothering me so badly. I really enjoy the WORK and I've been told by stakeholders that I'm good at it.

I know sometimes things just aren't a fit, but I feel like I'm never a fit anywhere. I'm spiraling... sorry for the rant.

I thought I was REALLY trying. What did I do wrong?