Art I was just sitting down to reply to your PM, but in response to this post. I'm sorry for butting in, but you went back and spoke to someone who has provided you with a sense of continuity and comfort for over 10 years. It would make sense that you would return when you have gone through a trying time with your physical health. Try to be kinder to yourself. You've not committed a crime or harmed anybody.

Sometimes you do have to go back to see that it was right to leave.